[edit] there's something that i feel i must add. you guys mean/meant the world to me. you were people who i knew would never screw me over for a guy, never backstab or betray me (& i had a lot of that before). you all made me feel safe, at home and like i belonged. it was the best while it lasted [/edit]
i see the end of the road. or maybe it has been long past the end of the road. i keep looking at the picture on my study table. we look so happy, so hopeful & carefree. hah. i might as well just erase myself from there. i took a step back, and everything fell apart. i realise i no longer know what's going on in all of your lives. and neither do you all know what's on in mine. i used to say i cannot imagine life without all we had, now i'm at a point in life, where you all are no longer there. and it hurts, but i'm still going on. and once i leave, i feel like it'll be the final goodbye. and i'm saying this, with regret, bitterness, nostalgia and sadness, but at the same time. the times we had, was the happiest times ever (:
you don't need to be in different countries to feel the distance. but being in different countries doesn't mean there'll be distance. haha.
anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BERT (: though i doubt you read my blog. haha, met him for lunch with mel in town e other day to catch up & say the goodbyes before he goes off to sea. WAITED A MILLION YEARS -glares- before both of em came, then we had a nice long talk over a late lunch. food + talking = good good. hehe.
oh yes. i must announce. I PASSED DRIVING :DDDDDDDDD so i've been driving myself around e past few days. mehehehehee. both my parents let me drive their car. woohoo. drove myself to town to meet anwar for breakfast at a godforsaken time on sat morning. then to town again on sunday (: meheee, then to cricket club for dinner on sunday night to celebrate me passing. ooh yes my mummy got me a new wallet as a pass driving present (: happy happy.
& daddy got me my supp card alr (: which rocks cos it gives me discounts at all my fav shops. whoopeee.
birthday boy (: STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE!
me & my ahmah!
yet (:
mummy <3
angie just told me something that just made my heart sink ): i do hope you pull through.
: xie xie ai :: hua yuan jing ling :
i see the end of the road. or maybe it has been long past the end of the road. i keep looking at the picture on my study table. we look so happy, so hopeful & carefree. hah. i might as well just erase myself from there. i took a step back, and everything fell apart. i realise i no longer know what's going on in all of your lives. and neither do you all know what's on in mine. i used to say i cannot imagine life without all we had, now i'm at a point in life, where you all are no longer there. and it hurts, but i'm still going on. and once i leave, i feel like it'll be the final goodbye. and i'm saying this, with regret, bitterness, nostalgia and sadness, but at the same time. the times we had, was the happiest times ever (:
you don't need to be in different countries to feel the distance. but being in different countries doesn't mean there'll be distance. haha.
anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BERT (: though i doubt you read my blog. haha, met him for lunch with mel in town e other day to catch up & say the goodbyes before he goes off to sea. WAITED A MILLION YEARS -glares- before both of em came, then we had a nice long talk over a late lunch. food + talking = good good. hehe.
oh yes. i must announce. I PASSED DRIVING :DDDDDDDDD so i've been driving myself around e past few days. mehehehehee. both my parents let me drive their car. woohoo. drove myself to town to meet anwar for breakfast at a godforsaken time on sat morning. then to town again on sunday (: meheee, then to cricket club for dinner on sunday night to celebrate me passing. ooh yes my mummy got me a new wallet as a pass driving present (: happy happy.
& daddy got me my supp card alr (: which rocks cos it gives me discounts at all my fav shops. whoopeee.
birthday boy (: STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE!
me & my ahmah!
yet (:
mummy <3
angie just told me something that just made my heart sink ): i do hope you pull through.
: xie xie ai :: hua yuan jing ling :
good luck and good night. 12:55 AM
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